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Magnificent desolation: The Long Journey Home from the Moon Kindle Edition
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THE ESSENTIAL AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF THE SECOND MAN ON THE MOON
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'Thrilling ... years on, the raw facts of the adventure remain beguiling and the bravery of the astronauts compelling' - SUNDAY TIMES
'Exciting and moving' - DAILY EXPRESS
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Buzz Aldrin, one of the three men who took part in the first moon landing in 1969, is a true American hero. Magnificent Desolation begins with the story of his voyage into space, which came within seconds of failure, and reveals a fascinating insider's view of the American space programme.
But that thrilling adventure was only the beginning, as Aldrin battled with his own desolation in the form of depression and alcoholism. This epic journey encompasses the brutally honest tale of Aldrin's self-destruction, and the redemption that came through finding love when hope seemed lost.
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'Buzz Aldrin might not have been the first man to walk on the Moon, but of all the astronauts to have been there, none of them has articulated their predicament with quite such wisdom and sensitivity' - MAIL ON SUNDAY
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherBloomsbury Publishing
- Publication dateAugust 17, 2009
- File size762 KB
Editorial Reviews
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–Vanity Fair, “Hot Type”
"An admirable account of an icon of the golden age of space flight."
–Kirkus Reviews
“Space fans, in particular, will cheer.”
–Booklist
“Aldrin presents a no-holds-barred account of how his celebrity, career and human weaknesses nearly destroyed his life….This inspiring story exhibits Aldrin as a different, perfectly human kind of hero, giving readers a sympathetic look at a man eclipsed by his own legend.”
–Publishers Weekly
“Buzz Aldrin relives the Magnificent Desolation of space, and the soul-sucking depression that awaited back home."
–Vanity Fair, “Hot Type”
“Riveting reading.”
–The Economist
“Leads the field of new releases.The candid portrayal of his earthly battles—often written with great humor—make this a cut above the rest….Great holiday reading.”
–New Scientist
“Captivating….an engaging first-hand account by one of history’s most important explorers.”
–Alive East Bay
From the Hardcover edition.
About the Author
Ken Abraham is a New York Times bestselling author, known around the world for his collaborations with celebrities and high-profile public figures.
Excerpt. © Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved.
Elevated 300 feet in the air on an upper platform of Kennedy Space Center’s Launch Pad 39-A, I stood alone on the grating of the towering gantry. A few yards away, loaded with more than 2,000 tons of liquid oxygen and hydrogen propellant, the giant Saturn V rocket also stood, primed for liftoff as the countdown progressed. Large shards of frost were already falling off its outer skin from the super-chilled liquid oxygen within.
Hours earlier my Apollo 11 crewmates, Neil Armstrong and Michael Collins, and I had enjoyed a predawn steak-and-eggs breakfast—an astronaut tradition—and had gone through an elaborate suiting-up with NASA’s equipment team helping us get into our pressurized suits, helmets, gloves, and boots. Along with our Pad Leader, Günter Wendt, a gray-haired man of German descent who had worked on almost every launch since the early days of the Mercury program, the three of us, carrying our portable air-conditioning ventilators as though we were heading off to work with our briefcases, loaded into the courier van for the short drive out to the launchpad.
Slowly we ascended in the gantry elevator, passing red metal grated walkways at various intervals leading to strategic areas of the rocket. Each of us had trained for his entire life leading up to this moment. As a crew, we had worked together for nearly a year, with Neil and I initially on the backup crew for the gutsy Apollo 8 mission, the first to fly around the moon after only one prior mission with the Saturn V, and then with Mike as the prime crew for the Apollo 11 mission. Because of the seating order in the cramped conditions of the Apollo command module—comparable to the interior of a small van in which the three of us would live and work for more than a week—climbing over one another to enter the craft while wearing our spacesuits was next to impossible. So Günter stopped the elevator about three-fourths of the way up, and dropped me off to wait there on the metal grat- ing while he, Neil, and Mike proceeded two more flights up to where the elevator opened at the “white room,” the final preparation area leading to the narrow hatch opening to the spacecraft. In less than three and half hours, if all went well, the enormous rocket, with the power of an atomic bomb, would release an engulfing fireball and lumber off the pad, slowly gathering speed as it rose majestically into the sky, launching America’s first attempt to land human beings on the moon.
The sun had not yet come up and was barely peeking above the horizon as I stood on the grating and peered through the clear bubble helmet I wore. The only sound I could hear came from my ventilation unit. Looking up and down the coastline, my eyes scanned the beaches for miles along the causeway near Cape Canaveral, where more than a million people had started gathering the night before, trekking in cars, motorcycles, pickup trucks, campers, and large motor homes, inching their way through bumper-to-bumper traffic as they sought the perfect launch viewing location. Already people were filling in every available spot of dry ground, and thousands of boats were anchored on the Indian and Banana rivers near the Cape. Without a good set of binoculars, most of the spectators could not see me, and from my vantage point I could barely see them, but I could see the evidence of them in the flickering campfires that dotted the beaches in the darkness. Everyone knew that something big was about to happen.
Because of the danger of explosion should something go wrong, the area immediately near the Saturn V was evacuated except for technicians making their final pre-launch checks. Even if the launch was perfect, no human could stay within several miles of it outside of the Firing Room, the launch control center at the Cape. The hot gases and thunderous noise would consume anyone standing too close to the rocket at ignition. The VIP spectator area, from which President Nixon, former president Lyndon B. Johnson, the astronauts’ families, politicians, celebrities, and others with the coveted special pass would watch the launch, was a full three miles away. Even there, the vibrations would be felt, and the roar from the engines would be almost deafening.
I looked to the south, where some of the older launch pads were located, and I couldn’t help letting my eyes linger on Launch Pad 34, where, two and a half years earlier, three of my fellow astronauts—Gus Grissom, Roger Chaffee, and Ed White—had lost their lives when they were trapped inside their space capsule in a torrid burst of flames during a pre-launch training test for Apollo 1. Ed had been a year behind me at West Point, where we became friends, and we’d later served together in the Air Force as fighter pilots in Germany, flying F-100s in the “Big 22” Squadron. He was the key person who had kindled and encouraged my efforts to contribute to the space program and ultimately become an astronaut, and now he was gone.
Instinctively my hand moved to a pocket on my spacesuit that contained a special pouch in which I carried an original mission patch honoring the men who had died aboard Apollo 1, as well as various medals honoring Soviet cosmonauts Vladimir Komarov, who had been killed on Soyuz 1, and Yuri Gagarin, the first man in space. In that same pouch I carried a silicon disk inscribed with wishes from leaders of seventy-three nations of the world, and a gold pin in the shape of the olive branch of peace that we had chosen as a symbol of our mission for all mankind. I planned to leave these tributes on the moon.
Not too far from Pad 34, I could see the remnants of Pad 19, where Jim Lovell and I had crewed the last mission of the Gemini program, for a series of complex rendezvous maneuvers and the world’s first successful spacewalk. It was exhilarating to end that program on a high note and pave the way for Apollo. I thought about how far we had come since man’s dream of flight was first realized when the Wright Brothers’ Flyer took to the air on the Outer Banks of North Carolina, at Kill Devil Hill, near Kitty Hawk, in 1903—the very year my mother, Marion Moon, was born. Now, only sixty-six years later, we were aiming for a much longer, more daring, and dangerous flight.
For fifteen minutes I stood on that walkway, suspended from the steadily marching countdown, and enjoying a moment of peace and solitude as I contemplated the journey ahead. I recalled just how wonderful my life had been to get me to this point. All the facets and experiences had worked out along the way to put me in the right place at the right time. Now I was leaving Earth to land on another celestial body, and, if all went as planned, I would return to family and friends, to a full life. Our confidence was high—about 60 percent certain that we would succeed in landing on the moon, the part that had never been done before, and 90 percent that we would make it back home alive. We had trained, tested, and simulated nearly each element of the mission. But there were no guarantees. Even with all the preparation, a myriad of things could go wrong. As astronauts, we were trained to accept such risks, even the risk of not returning.
Finally, Günter was ready for me. I ascended the remaining twenty feet or so, and Günter helped me into the hatch, strapping me into my seat in the center couch, between Neil on my left, strategically situated near the abort handle, and Mike on my right. As we settled in, there was nothing left to do but wait while the countdown continued.
-., At 9:32 a.m., as the five large Saturn V engines ignited, we heard the final sequence of the countdown in our headsets: “T minus ten, nine, eight . . .” I quickly glanced at Neil and Mike, and we exchanged nervous but confident grins. Outside, at the base of the rocket, gases rushed out of each of the engine nozzles as we built up thrust. “T minus five, four, three . . .” With the engines running at full power, the gantry latches released and for a couple of seconds that seemed like forever, the rocket was standing unsupported, free as an eagle ready to soar.
“Two, one . . . zero . . .” The normally calm voice of Public Affairs Officer Jack King cracked with emotion from the Firing Room. “All engines running!” Even inside the command module with our helmets on, we could hear the mighty rumble. What looked like hundreds of tiny amber lights blinked on the instrument panels in front of us as the controlled but excited voice cried, “Liftoff! We have a liftoff!”
The rumbling sound grew louder and the huge rocket felt as though it swayed slightly as it smoothly inched off the pad. In fact it was so smooth that at first we couldn’t detect the exact moment we left the ground. More large shards of frost fell from the sleek metal sides as blue sky seemed to move past the hatch window directly above me. Below us an inferno of flames, steam, and gases billowed all around the launch pad. With 7.6 million pounds of thrust pushing all 3,240 tons of the rocket and spacecraft, we cleared the tower and rapidly accelerated, the g forces dramatically building up and pressing against us. We were on our way to the moon!
Twelve seconds into our flight, shortly after we cleared the tower and were streaking from a straight vertical shot to a gradually changing angle of inclination into the blue sky above, the hundreds of technicians hovering over their displays and consoles in the Firing Room at Cape Canaveral could breathe a little easier. At that point their main job was done and control of our mission moved to the nerve center at Mission Control in Houston, where hundreds of other technicians and engineers manned their consoles and displays, monitoring every aspect of our flight. In the main control room, whimsically known to NASA...
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- Publisher : Bloomsbury Publishing
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- Publication date : August 17, 2009
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Customers find the book engaging and well-written, describing it as a riveting account of history. Moreover, they appreciate the author's personality, with one customer noting his frankness about personal trials. Additionally, the book receives positive feedback for its pacing, with one review highlighting its thought-provoking look, and customers value its challenge level, with one mentioning the complexities of human ingenuity.
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Customers find the book readable and interesting, with one customer noting it's particularly enjoyable to read Buzz Aldrin's perspective.
"Wow, what a read. Buzz Aldrin tells it like it is. The bio about Neil Armstrong is also an excellent read...." Read more
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Customers find the book's story riveting and historically informative, with one customer particularly appreciating the detailed account of Buzz Aldrin's thoughts.
"...Aside from a splendid narrative of his role in Apollo XI that opens the book, this is a work about the astronaut's adventures and misadventures post..." Read more
"...In his own right, Aldrin tells a remarkable story about his professional accomplishments and the courage it took to take the steps he did to address..." Read more
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- Reviewed in the United States on January 19, 2023Wow, what a read. Buzz Aldrin tells it like it is. The bio about Neil Armstrong is also an excellent read. It is quite fascinating to learn how Buzz made it to the Moon and to get his thoughts and his anguish. Possibly, he never recovered from being the SECOND man on the Moon and never fully understood why Neil was selected as mission commander and not him, but reading his book, the reader will clearly understand nonetheless. Moreover, comparing this book to the bio about Neil, the reading will come to a much greater understanding of the two men, true explorers willing to face the unknown and test themselves much as Shackleton, the only Earthly analogy I can think of. Really good read and well worth it.
- Reviewed in the United States on February 13, 2010There is another autobiography available to Amazon shoppers from the pen of Buzz Aldrin, "Return to Earth." Released in 1973, the first account gives us some inkling into the astronaut's difficulties upon his return to earth from the historic Apollo XI moon landing of 1969. One might say that the astronaut's disclosure of his stresses in 1973 was an attempt at closure, albeit a premature one. Unfortunately for Aldrin, in some ways his troubles were just intensifying. Astronaut Jim Lovell quipped on a television commentary some years ago, "Who remembers the second guy to fly solo across the Atlantic?" By all accounts Aldrin's status as second man down the ladder behind Neil Armstrong troubled him at the time of the moon landing and, as it turned out, for a long time afterward.
There is ambivalence in the very title "Magnificent Desolation," as it is not clear whether the phrase refers to outer space or Aldrin's inner space. Aside from a splendid narrative of his role in Apollo XI that opens the book, this is a work about the astronaut's adventures and misadventures post 1969, of which he had plenty of both. Little could he know, in 1973, that his first autobiography was not the final word, but simply a milepost along a hard road to health and wholeness.
Aldrin was an alcoholic, most likely before Apollo XI and certainly afterward, but the astronaut corps of the time was a hard drinking fraternity in which excess of that sort was scarcely visible. Moreover, his outstanding R&D efforts involving extravehicular dexterity on his Gemini XII flight with Lovell in 1966 made him respected, if not loved, within NASA, and his personal issues never seemed to have crossed the Apollo XI radar, except to the degree that NASA's inner circle did give considerable thought to his working relationships; the unflappable Armstrong proved to be the best fit for the overachieving, self-confident, and somewhat arrogant Aldrin. However, the challenge of post-Apollo life worried Aldrin and in the midst of the world-wide media frenzy after the moon flight , the famous `first man on the moon" stamp--bearing Neil Armstrong's image alone--was unveiled, reopening a long festering wound and sparking new excuses for self indulgence.
But beyond alcohol and hurt feelings, Aldrin simply did not know what to do with himself. He envied Armstrong's contentment with pure engineering and his gradual withdrawal to academic life. He became vaguely aware that his problems might be emotional in nature, even raising the issue of astronaut psychology obliquely to a conference of aerospace doctors. Most readers will recognize his symptoms as depressed mood; the difficulty then was incredulity among his friends and caregivers--including Aldrin himself--that a celebrated moonwalker could be so afflicted. Between depression and alcoholism, he embarked upon a series of impulsive, indulgent, and ill-advised decisions, including divorcing his wife and serving as something of an absentee landlord at Edwards Air Force Base, where he headed the test pilots' school. Sensing deterioration, in 1973, four years after Apollo XI, Aldrin decided to write his tell-all book about his depression and marital difficulties, though without mention of his drinking.
Aldrin's drinking continued unabated for the next half-dozen years. His self-report of the drinking years in this work is sadly similar to that of millions of alcoholics, except that as a member of the Apollo XI crew his trouble was fairly public knowledge. A period of sobriety led to a made-for-TV movie, after which the astronaut returned to drinking. At one point, a mere five years after Apollo XI, he was reduced to selling cars--and failed at that.
Many astronauts were profoundly and deeply affected by their Apollo moon excursions, not just Aldrin. Jim Irwin's post-flight quixotic search for Noah's Ark is one of the best known of a series of remarkable transformations. For Aldrin, depression and substance abuse--the latter finally brought under control in October, 1978--were in some respects the tip of the iceberg of his restless difficulties. For a man of high intelligence and technological brilliance, Aldrin was also highly imaginative and carried an entrepreneur's gene or two in his DNA. Perhaps of all the astronauts he best realized the unthinkable technical achievement of the Apollo Program, and grieved its eventual demise--less over his own future opportunities than for what we might call the humanitarian/scientific opportunities of the human species.
Aldrin reveals himself as a "big picture" sort of guy. He discloses this about himself almost unwittingly, from his narrative of the projects, visions, and ideas he has expounded to about anyone who would listen, down to the present day. He designed, for example, a concept he called "the cycler," a means of using permanent orbiting space vehicles as "shuttlers" between the earth and the moon, and eventually Mars. But the Martian cycler best illustrates Aldrin's frustration: NASA's Tom Paine told him in 1984 that taxpayers would not fund such ventures, and as Aldrin himself ruefully admits, he began to earn a reputation as a guy with "harebrained ideas." [180]
Gradually Aldrin came down to earth, figuratively speaking, through the 1980's, indebted in no small part to the energy and affection of his second wife, and gradual improvement in the treatment of his chronic depression. Although ever the wide-eyed enthusiast, he seemed to come to peace with a recreated persona as general spokesman for the exploration of space. He kept himself in the public eye, appearing on multiple television programs and interviews, including "The Simpsons." His lifestyle appeared to some as self-aggrandizement, but in my view his behavior spoke more of "don't forget me and my profession." At the end of the day, the reader is more likely to conclude that Aldrin, considering his inner demons, warts, and a uniquely perplexing place in the history books, is no defiant space cowboy, but rather, a complex man who struggled in black-and-white worlds.
- Reviewed in the United States on July 10, 2009"The sun had not yet come up and was barely peeking above the horizon as I stood on the grating and peered through the clear bubble helmet I wore. The only sound I could hear came from my ventilation unit."
Twenty-four humans have travelled to the Moon, and only 12 of them got to walk on the surface. Descriptions of what such a truely `out-of-this-world' experience was really like can only be written by these 12. Buzz is one of the 12, indeed he was on the first mission. For the epochs history stuff. The titbit in the book that the lift-off from the Moon in the spindly Eagle was much faster than the mighty Saturn V launch a few days earlier (due to the Moon's less powerful gravity and the lighter mass of the launch vehicle) is an example of I-was-there super coolness that makes all the other technical books about the moon landings come to human breathing life.
There are many such books that cover the Apollo program, but this smooth autobiography fills in what it was like to be there - and what it is like to find yourself back on Earth with a second half of a life still to lead. What to do now? How does such fame change people? For a while the only sound Buzz heard was his own breathing in an empty bubble. There isn't much about Buzz's early life, the story here is the ten years of divorce, depression and alcoholism after the moon landing, then his new wife and new life promoting the `Buzz Brand' and being a booster for space travel. Not a lot of detail or surprising revelations, however it's an honest thought-provoking look at a complex man in a complex situation. Neil and Buzz have been living in a clear bubble ever since 1969, and getting a peek inside is worth the time it takes to read 300 something pages.
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- FluffynymphReviewed in Australia on May 11, 2021
2.0 out of 5 stars I did not enjoy this book.
Buzz Aldrin’s book put me off him. I had already read the wonderful accounts of Neil Armstrong and MichaelCollins on their voyage to the moon. They were able to put that event behind them and go on to lead successful and fulfilling lives. Buzz could could never let go. He wanted to be forever the ultra -
important man who had walked on the moon. I find it distasteful that he spent so much of his life trying to make money out of it, with the help and management of his second wife, who so wanted to mix with celebrities. Buzz had what it took to make the crew for the moon landing, but he makes it clear he was no leader. He was only successful when he had someone managing him, latterly his wife. It is noticeable that he makes very little mention of Neil and Michael. The focus was all on himself - and Lois. There is a lot about Lois that is irrelevant to his story. N the last section you would think he was the only one who had been on the moon.
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Miguel CooperReviewed in Mexico on March 26, 2024
2.0 out of 5 stars Podría estar mejor
Algunos capítulos son interesantes, otros me parecieron bastante tediosos.
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Klaus J. BaumeisterReviewed in Germany on April 12, 2013
5.0 out of 5 stars Beeindruckend, unterhaltsam und unverblümt
Wow, der zweite Mann auf dem Mond. Was für ein Hammer.
Dass man den Lunar Lander nur zu zweit steuern kann und es deshalb First Men heißen sollte, zum Beispiel auf den Briefmarken, in den entsprechenden Büchern und und und....
Ja, das hat ihn sehr geärgert.
Dass er nach seiner Mondkarriere alkoholabhängig und schwer depressiv wurde, ist wohl nicht nur diesem Umstand zuzuschreiben. Er wurde nach dem starken Aufstieg über Gemini 12 und Apollo 11 auf 's Abstellgleis gestellt. Mit dramatischen Folgen (wie erwähnt). Er erzählt in einer echten Autobiografie den langen Weg zurück vom Mond in ein halbwegs normales Leben. Dabei hat der Flug zum Mond natürlich einen hohen Seitenanteil im Buch. Sein Kampf mit den Monstern in seinem Kopf und seinen Träumen, ja das ist wirklich beeindruckend. Ein völlig pathosfreies Buch und eine heimliche Abrechnung mit einer Nasa die halt den Unterschied nicht kannte zwischen einem Wegwerfraumschiff und einem Astronauten (nicht Wegwerfastron...). Nach Neil Armstrong's "First Man" das Gegenmittel.
- SimonReviewed in Canada on July 1, 2018
5.0 out of 5 stars A great read.
Kept my interest. Much of what we are seeing with SpaceX seems to be inspired by Buzz Aldrin's vision.
Read it.
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MAReviewed in Spain on June 14, 2013
3.0 out of 5 stars Demasiado perrsonal
No es de las mejoras biografias de astronautas, a ratos parece mas un libro de autoayuda que una biografia, quizas para los que queremos indagar en la historia d ela carrera espacial no es de los mejores libros.